made you so ok I'm doing this I can't stand this pain anymore

I'm having one on the 11th and I'm barely 30. I have fibroids, polyps and cysts. have been fighting with this since about 96 adn am finally to the point that I've accepted (after 2 miscarriages) that I'm not goign to ave a child of my owna dn taht there's adoption so why continue to fight it. they wanted me to do more pills, shots, etc but I'm tired of being their guinea pig and the last pill I nearly bled out from